Insanity

I know this has no structure at all, I just needed a way to vent my emotions.

I was once told

That to do the same thing twice

And expect a different result

Is the definition of insanity

From this I took

That to do good

One must do bad

And that goes the other way.

I have done bad

And learned a lesson

To not do the same

And I acted upon it

My lies were clouds

That I have dispelled

My fears were my chokers

Which I have torn asunder

Through the crowd of people, I made my way

And jumped off a cliff

That brought me to life

And raised me up as I fell

I was returned to the ledge

And was happy as could

I thought I had done well

But only brought hell  to myself

My angel hid behind something

Was it fear

Or disinterest

Perhaps disgust

But that matters not

She eluded me

Whether slipped or ran

It matters not

And now I am here

Breaking down in tear

Scolding myself for my weakness

Of a love I never meant to have